BOOM! I am surrounded by lightning. It is everywhere…near, far, beautiful flashes off in the distance, spidery webs from cloud to cloud; bold, blinding streaks of electricity connecting to the ground. I adore storms. I am one of those people who will be racing up the stairs as you’re on your way to the basementContinue reading “Chapter 38: VOID”
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Chapter 37: Hail Mary Pass
The single page letter trembles in my hand. Someone hates me… and I dont mean just dislike, but visceral, passionate hatred. This isn’t your garden variety abhorrence. They want me completely destroyed. This is deep loathing, to take the time to purposefully and maliciously mess with someone else’s life, put in the effort to actuallyContinue reading “Chapter 37: Hail Mary Pass”
Chapter 36: What Is That Pink Shit Anyway?
The doorbell rings, and I wait. I am going to vomit right here on the doorstep. Couldn’t take it, cleanup in Aisle 3, please, go get the pink stuff. Twenty four years of denial lie in the pit of my stomach, tossing, turning, roiling… My friend opens the door, and I collapse into her, myContinue reading “Chapter 36: What Is That Pink Shit Anyway?”
Chapter 35: The Phone Call
Amazing how you can think you have some great plan, and you’re confidently reeling it in, but you have no awareness something’s sneaking up behind you in the boat, and suddenly everything skids sideways and you’re drowning instead of fishing, and as the murky lake water fills your lungs, your last thought as you dwindleContinue reading “Chapter 35: The Phone Call”
Chapter 34: Playing With Matches
My hands shake as I awkwardly pen my name on the signature card. I really hope no one in Tiny Town notices what I’m doing here. I am at a local bank, opening a checking account in my own name. Have you figured this out yet? I have a dirty little secret I’ve been keepingContinue reading “Chapter 34: Playing With Matches”
Chapter 33: 50 Shades of Religion
Accepting, Real, Relational. That’s the tagline for this church. And it’s kinda true. We have folks coming here from all walks of life, and they aren’t judged. It’s a beautiful thing. Honestly, if you’re going to emulate the life of Jesus, you’re going to hang around with all kinds of interesting and sometimes odd andContinue reading “Chapter 33: 50 Shades of Religion”
Chapter 32: Running With Scissors
Green slime oozes long drips from the eaves of the church building. And I am absolutely not kidding. Pastor Almost and I plan messages together in a series, about 4-6 weeks long, dealing with various aspects of the same theme. Then, we flesh it out, often using secular music, various visual arts, and even danceContinue reading “Chapter 32: Running With Scissors”
Chapter 31: Tiny Town, Take 3
Coffee. The delicious liquid calling my name every morning, “Monicaaaaa, come drink meeee”. The scent wakes up my brain, the taste is an immediate jolt to a tired mind. I have a lifelong, rather passionate love affair and a solid addiction to this substance. Please don’t send me a twelve-step pamphlet, I’m no quitter, andContinue reading “Chapter 31: Tiny Town, Take 3”
Chapter 30: Zombieland
We are undead. Eyes sunken from a thousand tears, limbs dragged along through another pointless day, wake up, wander around, try to choke something down, go to bed. Lather, rinse, repeat. We have spent 20 of the best years of our lives building a ministry career together, and it is gone like cheap beer atContinue reading “Chapter 30: Zombieland”
Chapter 29: 020408
Fired. I just stand there, struck dumb. “They…FIRED you?!!” There has been absolutely no warning. Zero pink slips, no bad reviews. in fact I had thought things were looking up, we were adapting to working together and doing what we had been asked, had figured out a way to make the best of this newContinue reading “Chapter 29: 020408”
Worship Leader Gone Wild 